I don’t know what to do. I am living with my girlfriend of 5 years. She is no longer interested in having sex with me (but she has no problem cheating on me with at least 2 other guys!).
I have always been into sissy stuff, including dildos, butt plugs, and dressing up. I am submissive, I have a tiny dick, and I love being pegged and humiliated. My girlfriend always knew about this, right from the beginning. Even when we were fucking all the time, I would dress up around her, watch gay or trans porn, and video myself using dildos, or whatever.
She was fine with it. Then about a year ago, she lost interest in sex. I begged, pleaded, talked, fought, did research but nothing I tried was successful. So the longer I’ve gone with being denied and rejected, the more I would find myself fucking my ass.
I bought bigger plugs. Bigger dildos. I bought a fucking machine! And I even posted my ass fucking videos on Twitter and xHamster. I did it more often too. Now if I get horny, I’ve already given up on sex.
Before I used to think about jerking off. Now, the first thing I think of is shoving my 13″ dildo up my ass and fucking myself until I have a prostate orgasm, while I’m wearing a pink skirt and high heels.
I used to indulge in this stuff once a month. Now it’s 3 – 4 times a week, and I seriously can’t stop. I’m almost ready to look for a guy to come fuck my ass, because apparently that is my sex life now. I am a cuckold sissy slut.
